I haven't written anything in a while, but I think its about time that I
start...
Things have been...wild here in
California. I can't explain it any other way really. The emotional
rollercoaster I have been on seems never ending, just when I think the
ride has come to stop and I begin to unbuckle my seat belt...BAM. There I
go. Up that hill again and around new twists and turns that I swear
were never there before. It has been four months and I have yet to
land myself an animation job and now, when I start up the search again, I
get so quickly defeated at the lack of response that I get depressed
from even trying. But I try to press onward. I stop for a weeks and then
start up randomly. It's just hard to put your all into something when
you're getting nothing back in return. I think I only received one
e-mail from all of the companies and positions that I applied for. One.
It was a rejection, but I was just thrilled to know that I really am
sending these out to human beings! I have my Toys R Us job, which is
pretty chill (except for a lot of the guests this time of year. Hooooly
grumps! Its the holidays people, perk up!) and I love all of the people I
work with. Everyone is just so fun and friendly that it makes the job
way less dreadful to go to. But, I still dread it. Just because I'm
disappointed in myself for not getting something in my field. I know its
a tough market right now, but that will not stop me from being hard on
myself. Although, I wish I wasn't..
Besides that, my homesickness
REFUSES to leave me. I think it may just be because its Christmas time
and I'm pretty alone out here with no snow and nothing to make me feel
all warm and Christmas-y. But it could just be that I'm depressed, I
feel useless, and I feel completely alone for a good chunk of everyday.
Thank heavens I'm starting to work mostly 8 hour shifts 5 days a week!
Seriously though, I can't snap out of this. One day I'm fine and I'm so
proud of myself for doing all of this all, on my own, and for the next
two days I'm a weep ball of sadness that's constantly on the verge of
tears and continually requesting to go home or to see her family. I
need something to happen soon. I keep wondering if I really am meant to
live so far away from home. And I keep wondering what will become of
Nick and I if this cycle continues. I'm dreadfully afraid of what might
happen for us in the future, but I have to keep telling myself that
things all happen for a reason and that everything will fall into place
somewhere down the road. I just have to keep plugging along.
Or...something like that
Some good news is that I have gotten a few Christmas cards, which
definitely made me feel loved and Nicolaus was up a few weeks ago. We
had a blast and saw and did a lot of super fun things. I should have
written about that, however I sort of forgot that Blogspot existed.
OOPS! Also, in less than two weeks I'll be home in Rochacha again for
about 10 days or so. I really can't wait to see the family..I just don't
know how I am going to bring myself to leave it all!
Ah well, until next time!
Monday, December 10, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Settled in
Aouhdwualiuwqilfgh...I'm finally (almost) completely completely moved in in the valley here in Los Angeles, CA. The only thing left to do is find a flippin job, hopefully in animation though I'll take anything about now.
The past few weeks have been an up and down emotional ride mostly stemming from extreme homesickness and a feeling of failure from not being able to find a job and just sitting on my butt all day (productively of course, filling out applications and such, but it's still sitting around). Hoping it starts to feel like home soon.
BUT. I'm so excited. Its been fall for awhile now, although 100+ temperatures don't really make it feel as such, and I have been really wanting to do fall type things. The issue is that I am in LA and apparently farms are scarce out here or something, weird right? However, I think I may have found a place and...crossing my fingers that they might also have some home made cider on hand as well as candy apples. We'll know in a few weeks when I go pumpkin picking. If you dress up the last weekend of October, admission into the festival there is free too- guess who'll be pumpkin picking as a jellyfish? This girl! Haha now I have to get better about updating this, since everywhere I go will be considered traveling, being in a new place and all!
Til next time
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The past few weeks have been an up and down emotional ride mostly stemming from extreme homesickness and a feeling of failure from not being able to find a job and just sitting on my butt all day (productively of course, filling out applications and such, but it's still sitting around). Hoping it starts to feel like home soon.
BUT. I'm so excited. Its been fall for awhile now, although 100+ temperatures don't really make it feel as such, and I have been really wanting to do fall type things. The issue is that I am in LA and apparently farms are scarce out here or something, weird right? However, I think I may have found a place and...crossing my fingers that they might also have some home made cider on hand as well as candy apples. We'll know in a few weeks when I go pumpkin picking. If you dress up the last weekend of October, admission into the festival there is free too- guess who'll be pumpkin picking as a jellyfish? This girl! Haha now I have to get better about updating this, since everywhere I go will be considered traveling, being in a new place and all!
Til next time
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Thursday, August 30, 2012
Changes
Welp...Things have changed quite a bit from my last post. I will soon be headed over to the West Coast to live in Cali with my Uncle!!! Hopefully things will go smoothly (though, do they ever?) and I'll find an animation job quickly, be able to afford my own place to live- so I can get Meems and Cadence back into my arms sooooon, and enjoy my new life.
I am mainly filled with feelings that involve extreme terror and extreme sadness, the excitement wearing off the closer and closer the trip actually gets. I'm going to miss so many people (and bunnies and kitties!) and I've never really and truly lived away from home before. Especially not this far away!
Right now I am trying to sleep, though not doing a very good job, as I'm going on my last family camping trip for quite some time in the morning. Hopefully I will be learning how to fish and some other fun camping things, but we'll see. It will be nice to be out camping though, I miss the outdoors- especially the 1000 Islands- a lot.
I guess I should catch some sleep so I can be rested for the drive!
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I am mainly filled with feelings that involve extreme terror and extreme sadness, the excitement wearing off the closer and closer the trip actually gets. I'm going to miss so many people (and bunnies and kitties!) and I've never really and truly lived away from home before. Especially not this far away!
Right now I am trying to sleep, though not doing a very good job, as I'm going on my last family camping trip for quite some time in the morning. Hopefully I will be learning how to fish and some other fun camping things, but we'll see. It will be nice to be out camping though, I miss the outdoors- especially the 1000 Islands- a lot.
I guess I should catch some sleep so I can be rested for the drive!
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Tuesday, February 21, 2012
I don't know if you have noticed, but I am terribly awful at updating all of my blogs. I guess I just don't lead a very busy, fun, or interesting life.
I have, however, been planning for quite a few trips. Although, most of these will not be coming to fruition for a couple years.
I have been only slightly planning for a trip to NYC in March that may or may not happen, but will mainly be used to scout for neighborhoods that I like and to get an idea on the apartment market. Just in case the job search eventually takes me there. Althooooough, I am really hoping that the job search will take me to sunny California.
Next trip will (hopefully) be for 2015 or 16. It will be my DREAM trip- JAPAN FOR 1 MONTH! I would really like to stay for a year, but this will be just fine for right now. Surprisingly its less that paying for one week of Australian fun for two people, but that's what happens when you "downgrade" your hotel and go for the traditional Japanese inn (Ryokan) route!
I'm so freakin pumped that I have not been able to fall asleep very quickly at night...which is ridiculous since both trips are rather far away. But I am planning and planning and....oh yeah, planning like CRAZY.
I have, however, been planning for quite a few trips. Although, most of these will not be coming to fruition for a couple years.
I have been only slightly planning for a trip to NYC in March that may or may not happen, but will mainly be used to scout for neighborhoods that I like and to get an idea on the apartment market. Just in case the job search eventually takes me there. Althooooough, I am really hoping that the job search will take me to sunny California.
Next trip will (hopefully) be for 2015 or 16. It will be my DREAM trip- JAPAN FOR 1 MONTH! I would really like to stay for a year, but this will be just fine for right now. Surprisingly its less that paying for one week of Australian fun for two people, but that's what happens when you "downgrade" your hotel and go for the traditional Japanese inn (Ryokan) route!
I'm so freakin pumped that I have not been able to fall asleep very quickly at night...which is ridiculous since both trips are rather far away. But I am planning and planning and....oh yeah, planning like CRAZY.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Day 2
Day 1 was long and waking up was a bit harder than I thought it would be. Most of the kids seemed to be used to getting up early or something though, especially my girl group. Most of them were wide awake at 6:00, from what they told us. Thats too crazy. I didn't even get up until 7:45 which was sort of last minute since we have to be knocking on their doors at 8! Haha, good thing I have no hair to style!
Anyway, onto something you guys will care about. Day two started off shaky, with two groups losing their scripts thanks to Deepfreeze. Apparently, if you save anything to the mac hard drive or desktop in this state, power your computer off, and turn it back on, it will be wiped. But breakfast started the rest of the day right with pancakes, sausage, eggs, and hashbrowns- all of it deeeeeelicious! However, this was just a trick to make you think that the rest of the meals would be as scrumptious. LIES.
Afterwards, we met up with Fred and Mike from Animatus Studio here in Rochester to learn about the magic of storyboarding. The kids were much more receptive to this lecture than Johannes', but I think its only because they were constantly kept busy after a short discussion. The guys would just walk around to the groups and give them 1-on-1 attention. It seemed to go a lot better and the kids were more attentive. Don't get me wrong, elements of a story are super crucial, but as I mentioned before, it is hard to keep 13 year olds focused!
Storyboarding went surprisingly quick, which was nice because the kids got to enjoy a lot of free time and also some pool time. It was like the calm before the storm since Wednesday would be all about FILMING. For the kids, this was a nice, easy day, but for us counselors it was busy and hectic. We weren't really fully aware of the situation with actors before camp started, but basically they didn't provide us with any. So here we are, scrambling around trying to find some professional actors in the Rochester area for filming the NEXT DAY. Needless to say, it didn't go so well. Phone calls to friends, family, acquaintances, and those people that you've only talked to a handful of times were the last resort and boy did we pull our resources thin. We managed to find enough people (with 3 or 4 staring in a couple different movies since we were so low), but it took a whoooole lot of time and effort.
I kind of wished the kids had more of a participating role in it, more so for them to see what its like to get actors. But it was just too hectic to really involve them since we were calling people who weren't really in the business.
After another long, but worthwhile day, it was finally time to settle in for the night. Thank GOODNESS!
Anyway, onto something you guys will care about. Day two started off shaky, with two groups losing their scripts thanks to Deepfreeze. Apparently, if you save anything to the mac hard drive or desktop in this state, power your computer off, and turn it back on, it will be wiped. But breakfast started the rest of the day right with pancakes, sausage, eggs, and hashbrowns- all of it deeeeeelicious! However, this was just a trick to make you think that the rest of the meals would be as scrumptious. LIES.
Afterwards, we met up with Fred and Mike from Animatus Studio here in Rochester to learn about the magic of storyboarding. The kids were much more receptive to this lecture than Johannes', but I think its only because they were constantly kept busy after a short discussion. The guys would just walk around to the groups and give them 1-on-1 attention. It seemed to go a lot better and the kids were more attentive. Don't get me wrong, elements of a story are super crucial, but as I mentioned before, it is hard to keep 13 year olds focused!
Storyboarding went surprisingly quick, which was nice because the kids got to enjoy a lot of free time and also some pool time. It was like the calm before the storm since Wednesday would be all about FILMING. For the kids, this was a nice, easy day, but for us counselors it was busy and hectic. We weren't really fully aware of the situation with actors before camp started, but basically they didn't provide us with any. So here we are, scrambling around trying to find some professional actors in the Rochester area for filming the NEXT DAY. Needless to say, it didn't go so well. Phone calls to friends, family, acquaintances, and those people that you've only talked to a handful of times were the last resort and boy did we pull our resources thin. We managed to find enough people (with 3 or 4 staring in a couple different movies since we were so low), but it took a whoooole lot of time and effort.
I kind of wished the kids had more of a participating role in it, more so for them to see what its like to get actors. But it was just too hectic to really involve them since we were calling people who weren't really in the business.
After another long, but worthwhile day, it was finally time to settle in for the night. Thank GOODNESS!
Camp Day 1!
I didn't venture too far away from home for this update, but I traveled much farther in a different way.
I recently returned from a one-week filmaking camp where I worked as a counselor. Here, the other counselors and I helped 12-18 year old kids stumble their way through the process of filmaking, to end up with a finished piece by the end of the week. We worked with some fantastic speakers, which the kids would go to every morning to learn about which aspect of filmaking that they would be immersed in for the day, and I think that everyone involved got a lot out of it.
The schedule started off with Scriptwriting on Monday. We checked all the kids in, let them organize their things, and then we whisked them off to listen to Johannes (yes, my RIT friends, that Johannes) talk about what makes a good story. Then they were off and running into their groups to get started on their masterpieces. I had the youngest of the groups and they all wanted to work together in order to make one film instead of breaking into 2 groups to make two films.
About halfway through the day, we realized that there were just too many people, too many varying ideas, and not enough agreement. I had to divide them and finally the scripts started to develop! We had a creep-tastic story about an asylum patient and a neat story about a germaphobic guy who has left the house for the first time in years. After splitting up, both groups seemed much more into scriptwriting, but have you ever tried to get a group of 13 year olds to concentrate? Its like freakin' rocket science and I am no scientist my friends.
Soon, though, it was lunch time and we shuffled off to the cafeteria. Which, by the way, had zero air conditioning, a million bodies, and hot food. This becomes a major problem later in the week.
Other than that it was scriptwriting all day and some free time for the kids, which they enjoyed a lot...the counselors did too, taking turns napping. What a long day!
I recently returned from a one-week filmaking camp where I worked as a counselor. Here, the other counselors and I helped 12-18 year old kids stumble their way through the process of filmaking, to end up with a finished piece by the end of the week. We worked with some fantastic speakers, which the kids would go to every morning to learn about which aspect of filmaking that they would be immersed in for the day, and I think that everyone involved got a lot out of it.
The schedule started off with Scriptwriting on Monday. We checked all the kids in, let them organize their things, and then we whisked them off to listen to Johannes (yes, my RIT friends, that Johannes) talk about what makes a good story. Then they were off and running into their groups to get started on their masterpieces. I had the youngest of the groups and they all wanted to work together in order to make one film instead of breaking into 2 groups to make two films.
About halfway through the day, we realized that there were just too many people, too many varying ideas, and not enough agreement. I had to divide them and finally the scripts started to develop! We had a creep-tastic story about an asylum patient and a neat story about a germaphobic guy who has left the house for the first time in years. After splitting up, both groups seemed much more into scriptwriting, but have you ever tried to get a group of 13 year olds to concentrate? Its like freakin' rocket science and I am no scientist my friends.
Soon, though, it was lunch time and we shuffled off to the cafeteria. Which, by the way, had zero air conditioning, a million bodies, and hot food. This becomes a major problem later in the week.
Other than that it was scriptwriting all day and some free time for the kids, which they enjoyed a lot...the counselors did too, taking turns napping. What a long day!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Whoops
Hahaha, so I definitely never updated this with Las Vegas things, since we had to pay for internet wherever we were. Blah.
Vegas was great, but I was really glad to be home. Its so busy there and definitely for the party oriented people, not so much for someone like me who enjoys family vacations or well, I don't know, just a different type of vacation. I think I would like to go back again but with friends instead of family, so that I can really live it up and have a good time.
Now, don't get me wrong, I had a fantastic time and saw some amazing shows and had some wonderful experiences while there. I loved, especially, seeing the outside and inside of all of the different hotels. It was impressive. We were in the Venetian for the first night, which was absolutely stunning inside and outside. Vegas does it up, let me tell you, and they do NOT miss any detail. Gondolas in and out of the hotel, Italian music playing inside the hotel and outside on the street in front of it, beautiful artwork on the ceilings, and rich details in just about everything else. I felt like a goddamn queen staying there. It was wonderful to feel that way. Plus, my mom's company threw this HUGE party that night wih free drinks and food. So, it was a REALLY good night!
The hotel that we stayed at for the remainder of the trip was the Flamingo, which was completely fantastic all in its own. They had water slides into their pools! There were flamingos (duh) outside of the hotel along with free-roaming birds and other animals. They also had some waterfalls that went into the pond there. The rooms were very small compared to the Venetian, but it is an older hotel and they had recently done some updating, so it was pretty nice. Plus, we didn't spend too much time in the rooms anyway! It was just amzing in there and all pink, which I loved, and a fun atmosphere.
That's my general review of Las Vegas, enjoy!
Vegas was great, but I was really glad to be home. Its so busy there and definitely for the party oriented people, not so much for someone like me who enjoys family vacations or well, I don't know, just a different type of vacation. I think I would like to go back again but with friends instead of family, so that I can really live it up and have a good time.
Now, don't get me wrong, I had a fantastic time and saw some amazing shows and had some wonderful experiences while there. I loved, especially, seeing the outside and inside of all of the different hotels. It was impressive. We were in the Venetian for the first night, which was absolutely stunning inside and outside. Vegas does it up, let me tell you, and they do NOT miss any detail. Gondolas in and out of the hotel, Italian music playing inside the hotel and outside on the street in front of it, beautiful artwork on the ceilings, and rich details in just about everything else. I felt like a goddamn queen staying there. It was wonderful to feel that way. Plus, my mom's company threw this HUGE party that night wih free drinks and food. So, it was a REALLY good night!
The hotel that we stayed at for the remainder of the trip was the Flamingo, which was completely fantastic all in its own. They had water slides into their pools! There were flamingos (duh) outside of the hotel along with free-roaming birds and other animals. They also had some waterfalls that went into the pond there. The rooms were very small compared to the Venetian, but it is an older hotel and they had recently done some updating, so it was pretty nice. Plus, we didn't spend too much time in the rooms anyway! It was just amzing in there and all pink, which I loved, and a fun atmosphere.
That's my general review of Las Vegas, enjoy!
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